Relationships

I've found myself back at the idea of relationships and now wanting one. For a good two years I was content with not having one and it didn't bother when other people were with their significant other. I would just be chill with it talking to them as if the sight of them was a normal occurrence. Recently its begun to make me feel like I want something like that in my life. Even though I shouldn't be thinking about that stuff with everything else right now, I feel as though I don't have a choice but to deal with it.

I feel like this sudden want of a relationship is mostly for the experience. The new experience aspect of it is mostly what I feel I want. I'm tired of the constant hanging out with girls that I share no real relationship with (i mean friendship wise as well) other than the fact that we have mutual friends. That's not what I want to do forever. Moving forward would be nice once in a while.